Soooooo....

Long time no journal..eh? -LAMELAME-

I was thinking of starting a new journal so I could actually write about things that I want to without the constant fear that some of my bestest friends will randomly decide to be active again and read the stuffs I want to post here. (haha..run on sentence) Not that they still couldn't find me, but whatever. A main reason for changing is my username. Eww. I forget how to spell it most the time. Kazaana? Wasn't that an uber lame reference to Miroku? .__.

Basically, there is some stuff that I want to rant about, but I really can't tell anyone. Or I don't want to. I'd like to be able to just rant into a journal whenever I like.

I am so confuzzled~

I suppose I'll end up doing it. Haha. Not today though, since it is 1:30 in the morning as I am typing this...

I beat Trauma Center: New Blood today! Now I have no wii games to play anymore nuuuu

I'm gonna go to bed now.

Okay. So I never go on here anymore. Except when I need icons. Oh well, who cares?

I've decided to just use this to rant. Since well, I can.

I think today is national ignore Caitlin day.

When I talk to people, they go idle. Or give non-caring answers. Or ignore me. wtf did I do to any of them. And they wonder why I don't answer back properly. Geez peoples.

I have not updated my journal in forever....but I want to so I shall. 'k~? Last time I updated was January 20th...jeez...XD

For the past two days I can't stop playing Tales of the Abyss! I just sit there for hours and hours and cannot stop. Gah. Not that that is a bad thing though. I was very happy last week to find Tales of the Abyss action figures at the Toy Vault! I got Guy~ I need to get the rest! I really want at least Ion, Jade, and Luke. Anise and Jade would be nice...but Natalia...eww...well, I want them all really. XD

It is almost my birthday! Wh00t. With my birthday money I decided to buy a Nintendo DS. Or I decided to ask my parents for one...or something. And to get the new Pokémon game, though I want Phoenix Wright more. If I get the Pokemon thingy, I can use the wi-fi thingy to talk to Noid! That's SO worth getting that game first. <333

I have to make up a stupid Chemistry thingy. Gah. Since I got a 35 on the test, I need to do 4 problems from a packet to bring it up to a passing grade. -sniffle-

I have been sick the past 3 days and it is annoying me. XD

Also, I read Battle Royale and watched the movie. I totally loved it. I read it in two days, which is fast for me! Lately I have been having really scary/creepy Battle Royale style dreams. Like..last night I had one where I was taken to some remote place and all the Battle Royale-ish stuff happened. I nearly got shot in the head by some girl. All I did was sit on the ground and cry while she glared at me. (XD) All these dreams are starting to freak me out!

I'm boooooooooored....darn.

Oh...and...FON MASTER ION I LOVE YOU.

The End.

Gah! You know how my Dad lives in his parent's basement? Well, guess what. They are moving and cannot take him with them! So my Mom is going to probably let him live here she says. That is so depressing. Seriously, I hate it.

After one night she is annoyed with him still. This morning she said that it'd be worth having him around for the money, but not any other reasons. Just being around him makes her realize more and more why they got divorced in the first place. She says she'd rather have a room mate. She was thinking of letting her friend John move in. He'd get the whole basement to himself. Then my Mom says I'd get her room as long as she can keep closet space. She'd sleep on the couch (which she does anyways). I'd still feel bad.

If my Dad did move back in, my Mom would have about 1000 dollars extra a month. My Mom has been worried because in a few years when I turn 18 (gah. >__<) she won't get child support from my Dad for me anymore, and that is 320 dollars. So she'd be losing that much a month. Then we probably would actually lose our house. I feel bad for getting older. XD;

Nya~. Why must everything be so difficult lately?

Jenna is being really annoying today. Lately she has been obsessed with clothes brands, especially American Eagle. She has been annoying my Mom all day to take her to the mall to buy new clothes, even though we went last week. I think my Dad is going to take her. Jenna gets whatever she wants by pouting! I wanna see if I can go with the to go to the bookstore.

Last night I got to eat dinner with chopsticks! It was fun. Except I still cannot manage to pick up rice, though I am getting better at it. We also went to Newport Creamery because Jenna wanted to go and was pouting about it. It was full of gangster kids. There were no normal families or friends in there at all. I'm not lying. They were outside too. The police even came! What fun~

My Dad has finally discoved e-mailing. The only problem is that he takes forever to type. it took him about 2 hours to send 2 e-mails. I'm not even lying. So that means that between him and Jenna, I hardly get any computer time!

Now...I totally lost my train of thought because my dad was talking to me. Well, I'm off to read the new Higurashi no Naku Koro ni chapters that were released! *__*

-sigh- Talking to Sarah today REALLY made me want to be able to go to Anime Boston. I mean, I already had but...do you get what I mean? Sure. We were talking about sunny cosplay skits we could do, and we wanted to do a Kingdom Hearts one since we are so obsessed with KH. We still have so many issues though! Sarah wanted to be Axel, Tom wanted to be Roxas, and I wanted to be either Zexion or Sora. Costumes are so hard to make though! Gah. After vacation the Anime Club is having a meeting. We are supposed to be discussing if we are going to be trying to go to Anime Boston or not. I hope we can!

Sarah is trying to make me go to the Winter Ball thingy! I don't like that stuff for some reason. Jenna and Sarah have been trying to get me to say why I won't go, but I don't want to tell them. Besides, I have a bunch of reasons jumbled together that don't make much sense. I really have no solid reason to tell anyone. XD;

My Mom kept calling my cell phone tonight! She told be to keep it on vibrate because she'd probably be calling and stuff. She called me at dinner and my leg was being vibrated from the phone and I was just like "O__O". It scared me. XD It turns out that she had some master plan! When I called back, she told me to call her when my Dad was really deeply asleep. So I did, and didn't know what to expect. It turns out she wanted to sneak into his car while he was asleep and look in his phone from work to see if he had been talking to her. He had been. The plan scared me though! So many things could have gone wrong! >__<

I did want to type something important but I forget what. Oh noes.


EDIT: Yay. I made a new LJ banner. I <3 Keiichi.

I need to rant. So I will. Hah. Though, I will still leave out some details, because if not then I will feel stupid.

Well, I am way to lazy to type it all out. All the details would take forever. Seriously. But anyways, my Mom and Dad are trying to get together. My Dad had a girlfriend and my Mom found out. They are divorced so he CAN have a girlfriend if he wants. Then my Mom got all jealous and he has been sleeping over the past 3 nights now, and is tonight again. I can't stand it anymore. The first night he slept over it was the same old thing. He was drunk, annoying, etc. It made my Mom mad. The next day he was abnormally nice. He took us to the mall and bought us stuff. (I got Disgaea vol. 1, a Tidus actiong figure, and Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time/Master Quest. Yay~) And that night was actually okay. Until the actual night time. Then it was just as annoying. But I really wish I could move or something. I can't stand it! >__<

My Mom says that if he talks to her again (she knows how to stalk his phone calls. Ninja skillz run in the family.) then it is over. He won't even get to come over and watch us during weekdays! I really would not mind this change. As mean as that sounds.

I feel myself reverting back to the way I was years ago, and I hate that. I had just begun to feel happier. Only a few of my friends have actually stuck around to know what I was like before. Actually, I really had no friends. Lucky me, eh? I've just been sitting around doing nothing. It is enough to make me want to cry. But crying is against the rules. My rules that I made to myself. So now I feel like killing people. What fun. Jenna told me she wants to also kills peoples. Yay~

And I sorta wish I could go back in time, to last year. I wish that I had listened to what my brain told me. "Go talk to him. You know you want to~. You can be friends. You seem to like the same stuff. Take Andrew's advice and say something to him." Besides saying a random time and like, 2 random sentences, I failed at that. Nya~ maybe I should listen to people more often. At least I only half failed this year~

I am too lazy to type anything anymore. -sigh-

I should listen to Link and his almighty manskirt. I fail. XD

I really must write in this more! I always think 'Oh, I sould write about _____ in my LJ today~!' but I never do....I'm lazy. XD;

Since I haven't posted anything I have wanted to, I will write it all down together tonight! Yay....maybe.

So, let's see...well, we ended up having school Monday! I was so happy to have school, but I was sick that day. I spent the first 2 periods half asleep. I wanted to at least get through art class. I did make it. After I started talking to Sarah and Nathan I felt better sorta. I went home long period. Yay for no math and gym~

Yesterday the fighting between my Mom and Dad got even worse! It brings back horrible memories of years ago. Must they fight like that in the house again? Usually they just do it over the phone. My Mom wants my Dad to not watch us anymore on weekdays. That is going to cause a huge argument when she breaks the news to him. He'll also start saying how incapable of doing things I am and make fun of me to try to get to stay. -sigh- What a meanie. And people really wonder why I have no self confidence? Let's just say it is because of times like that.

Today in English we picked our classes for next year. I get to take fun classes~.

Today was Anime Club at school!....or it was supposed to be. Mr. Carlson forgot about us or something again. He has been doing that lately. It is okay, we always make our own club outside by our special tree named Gilbert. Today it was too cold to do that though. Sarah didn't stay for our special club either! She walked home after school. How sad. It was still fun. We went into our little house in the front doors. People kept walking by and staring at us. Some gangster peoples were tapping on the glass like we were animals at the zoo. That annoying girl Cynthia actually went out there and started to pick a fight with them! So me, Erica, Nathan, and Tom went somewhere else. We visited Erica's science teacher and did some awesome forensic experiments and scribbled on the board. After Erica left I went to go look for my mom's friend who is a custodian at the school. We had to walk all the way to the other side of the school. I never found her. But from all the walking or something, Nathan's back was really hurt-y and he kept blaming it on his backpack. I felt bad though, knowing that it was partly my fault. I offered to carry his backpack and geez that thing is heavy! I carried it for him though...for like...15 minutes. My shoulder is broken now. Darn heavy backpacks. XD

Tomorrow we have Art Club! I hope that'll be as fun as Anime Club~.

Lately I have been addicted to playing Twilight Princess and Tales of the Abyss! I am at the water temple in Twilight Princess and I hate water, so I am not looking forward to the rest of that darn temple. I don't want to go upstairs to play on the PS2, so I will stay on the computer.

I don't think I have anything else interesting to say. -sigh-

PLEASE read this if you know me in real life....which is only a few of you on here. XD;

Do any of you guys have an account on eBay and would be willing to buy something off of there for me if I pay you the money? My parents don't buy things off of the internet, and refuse to even if I ask. I really want to buy one of the Kingdom Hearts plushies. On eBay I have seen Roxas, Sora, and Axel ones! I really want Roxas, but I do not have enough. Same with Axel! They are the cutest....why must they be the most expensive? The only one I can afford is KH1 Sora:
http://cgi.ebay.com/KINGDOM-HEARTS-SORA-PLUSH-cuddly-toy-15-inch-UK-SELLER_W0QQitemZ170067324127QQihZ007QQcategoryZ1345QQrdZ1QQssPageNameZWD1VQQcmdZViewItem

So...yeah. If you would be willing to help me out, I'll love you forever. I know that nobody is going to reply though. -sigh-

Well, I'm off to play Tales of the Abyss before Cameron yells at me to stop playng with the PS2.

I just had to say this to someone, even if it is only just to my LJ which no one reads, which is good because I promised I wouldn't tell anyone. I just got off the phone with Nathan. A few weeks ago his Mom had talked to my Dad about our plans to see Eragon. Apparently, after that, his Mom kept asking odd questions about my Dad. Like "Is he tall?", "What color hair does he have?", and more creepy stuff. He said she was desperate. XD I find that to be really funny.

Aww...I forgot to say Happy Holidays to everyone! >__<

And yay for vacation~!

I got a bunch of cool stuff for Christmas including some awesome games! Tales of the Abyss totally PWNS! I'm so glad my Mom got it for me~. I love all of the characters and stuff, and it is just really fun in general. I love Guy. I don't know why but he's just cool. And Jade is awesome...and scares me sometimes. I'd LOVE to beat the game before vacation is over, but that isn't going to happen. -__-;

I finally got my own copy of Radiata Stories! I missed not being able to play that game. Now I can FINALLY level up Eon~ <3

I also got Final Fantasy VII. I've only played a little of it so far, but I don't like it. Battles confuse the heck out of me and I am all confused! But the game itself is really really pretty. I love the cutscenes. Oh well, I will keep playing it. Maybe I'll get used to the things that confuse me.

I got a Gamecube! Fianlly~ I've wanted one for so long. I got Twilight Princess!! That game is so addicting. I don't really like being a wolf though. Sure it is fun to beable to use wold senses and talk to animals, but sometimes it makes me sa annoyed. I love that game though! I sat there today for 5 hours playing it.

I got a 50 dollar giftcard to Newbury Comics from my Aunt. I REALLY wanted to buy the KH2 Play Arts Sora, which has been sitting in there for months. Then I go to buy it and guess what? It isn't there anymore!! They only had Roxas and Kairi! I already have Roxas, and I would never buy Kairi because well...she's Kairi. Hopefully the Toy Vault still has Sora and Axel left. I'll have to annoy my Dad into taking me there. But now I'll have to spend actual money instead of a giftcard. -sigh-

With the giftcard I DID buy the Kingdom Hearts soundtrack! It cost 25 dollars...aww..I also bought Naruto magnets. I was hoping to get cool characters, but I got Naruto, Kakashi, and Iruka. I don't even really like Naruto anymore but I can't stop buying the merchandise! AHH!

Speaking of Naruto, something scary happened in Target the other day. I was in the toy isle looking at the Naruto toys with my brother. This girl comes down the isle, and guess what she is wearing. NARUTO'S JACKET! I was scared. Then she was fangirling over the action figures. If her Dad wasn't there with her I would have actually talked to her....maybe. But yeah...I was frightened by that. XD;

Tomorrow is Sarah's birthday party. I still haven't bought her a present! Me and my Mom will have to go tomorrow. Maybe I'll buy her some manga again. manga is always good, right? Maybe...Kingdom Hearts or Chain of Memories or Host Club or something. Or some random shoujo. Wait! Mayeb Merupuri since I never let her finish reading it by accident. ^^; I dunno.

I should probably go to bed now. It is 2:03 in the morning. That's what I get for playing video games until 1:30 then deciding to come on the computer.

Speaking of computers, I love my new desktop BG of the ToA guys. Sarah called me a traitor because I told her that that game may be cooler then Kingdom Hearts. Oh noes, being a traitor is bad...XD;